Worship While We Wait

God has been particularly silent lately. 

Even on a mountaintop retreat where I had 3 hours of intentional silence and solitude dedicated to listening for God’s voice, the only thing I heard was silence. 

It’s scary. It’s frustrating. I am left with many doubts and unanswered questions. 

That’s not to say that God has been inactive in my life. Even in this season of silence, I’ve seen reminders of his faithfulness. (One particularly sweet example is the blessing of my new community at Run With Christ SoCal. Our run this weekend was filled with so much joy, so much faith, so much community, and so many answered prayers!!)

Though there is much joy in this season, I still feel frustrated with God. It’s been at least a few months since I’ve heard him speak to my heart the way he used to speak so often. I have a lot of questions like, “God, where are you in all of this? Why aren’t you speaking to me? God, I need to hear from you!!” 

Then at church this morning, I was reminded of something one of our pastors said a while ago--

“Sometimes you have to let your body worship, even when your heart doesn’t feel it.”

So I raised my hands and worshipped through the silence. And as I did, I felt the faith of my church family praising God alongside me. I heard their voices and saw their hands raised and felt the power of their worship directed heavenwards. 

In this moment, I felt like Moses in Exodus 17. When he had no more strength to raise his hands during the battle, he had God-fearing people come alongside him. They gave him a rock to sit on and literally held up his arms for him. And because his hands were held high throughout the battle, God’s people were victorious. 

I encourage you—no, I URGE you—to join me in raising your hands in worship, even when you don’t feel it. Praise him in the silence, praise him in the waiting, praise him when it doesn’t make sense. And lean on Christlike community to uphold you when you have no strength left on your own. 

I believe our God will be victorious. Let us worship while we wait.