Do you ever struggle with the things that you simply can't understand? The things of the past that you just can't come to grips with? Or the parts of the future that you can't see yet?
If I'm being honest, lately I have been struggling to believe that God is writing a good story. I KNOW that he is, but sometimes it doesn't FEEL like it. I know that he knows what he's doing, but I don't understand it myself. And there's a part of me that wishes I did. I like things to be CLEAR. I like it when I can SEE the lines on the page. I like NEAT penmanship. But what if God doesn’t have neat penmanship? What if it’s hard to make out the story that he’s writing? What if I can’t read it, so I just have to trust his words when he says that the story he’s writing is good? What if he’s not hiding it from me and what if he’s not still writing it, but my little brain just can’t comprehend all the words on the page? It’s like trying to read in a different language. I understand some of it, and I can get the gist sometimes…but other times I’m completely lost and I need a translator. Jesus. Jesus came to be the translator. Jesus came to make it clear what is most important to know. So maybe he’s not an impersonal translator, but more of a personal teacher. He came to teach us the most important things, but he couldn’t stay here forever because we’re not supposed to learn it all. That’s impossible for us right now in our fallen, human state. Jesus, the good teacher. Who brought us good news. To teach us a good story. One that we may not fully understand…but when we get to the end of the book, we’ll say, “Wow. That was a GOOD BOOK. God is a GOOD WRITER.” And maybe he won’t translate it all into English by the end, but we’ll understand enough to be able to confidently say that the book was GOOD. So in the meantime, I’ll keep reading this chapter. I’ll keep struggling through it. I’ll look forward to the challenge. I'm determined to not get discouraged when I don’t understand. I WILL TRUST that this story has a GOOD ENDING. And I might miss some of the details…but the important part is that I understand the main point of the story: that it’s not really about the story itself, but the author. Our story is about the author. And THAT is what makes this story good.
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Wendy Sasaki
1/29/2022 07:42:27 am
That was so powerful Sophia! I am looking forward to the end of the good story and living eternally with the author! He is using you in a mighty way!
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Les Spagnoli
1/29/2022 08:43:37 am
Hey Sophia. Your dad shared this with his Men’s group. How deep, inspiring and thought-provoking. Your willingness to be vulnerable opens up the reader’s heart to what you are sharing. Humility always seems to do that. I’m excited to follow God’s story for your life over many years as I’m confident he has big plans for how he wants to use you. May God continue to bless your journey together with Him.
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Sandee Foster
2/1/2022 07:23:38 pm
Sophia, thank you for writing what most of us are thinking. Thanks for sharing your heart. You communicate very well and are a good writer. Keep up the good work.
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Jill Young
2/1/2022 10:05:11 pm
Wow Sophia
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Vonda Oropeza
2/2/2022 05:46:35 am
I love your writing! What an encouraging and INSPIRING word from God. You are gifted and I look forward to more of what the Lord will share through you. :)
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Lisa Kovalcik
2/2/2022 05:14:06 pm
I am really encouraged by your writing today!
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Kathy McDaniel
2/3/2022 10:35:08 pm
It’s so funny that you write this now. Our pastor just started preaching on the book of John, and when he started he addressed all those things that we just can’t grasp, don’t understand, and struggle with. He made a great analogy that I think you’ll like, as it has to do with a dog.
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Lindsey Clark
2/5/2022 01:26:49 pm
So beautifully written!! Love this!! Thank you for sharing your heart. ❤️
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